Well, I’ve taken two years off now and I think this year helped more than the first. But it’s different for everyone.
The first year really helped me learn how to spend and save my money. But I really didn’t move forward at all and felt like I was in a stand still. And I HATE that feeling with a passion… so it was really hard for me. But it was my own fault for not reaching out to other things other than work and hanging out.
I find that even doing little things like going to events and talking to people you haven’t talked to in a long time, help you further your goals and make you realize what you really want.
I still don’t know what I want to do, but I am much closer thanks to taking a couple years off. It was the best thing for me, in my opinion. If I had gone to school not knowing what I really wanted, it would have been another 5-7 thousand dollars down the drain… and I’m not ready to do that yet.
But honestly, do what you feel is the best for YOU. Don’t do what your parents tell you you’re “supposed” to do or what your friends say would be the most fun… do what you think would make YOU the happiest, and other people will be happy for you in the end. If they’re not… well, they’re just fucking assholes. ;)
I wish I knew what was going on in my head. It’s weird… You’d think I’d know what my thoughts are saying and what my feelings are… But I really don’t sometimes. And it legitimately sucks.
That’s all for today.
I love your belly button. I love the way you blush. I love your hidden dimple that comes out at night. I love the way you smell. I love your eyes. I love your laugh. I love the face you make when you’re turned on. Or when you’re thinking. Or when you see me for the first time. I love your hips. I love your mind. I love all of the questions you have about life. I love your jokes. I love the feel of your hand in mine. I love your moans. I love the way you care. I love the way you understand. I love everything about you. Someday, I hope you will, too.
It’s so weird how the weather effects your mood. Although I feel like it was a weird day before I saw that it was cloudy and rainy… I guess it just added to the oddness. Spent all day inside… Didn’t get up until 11:30… Just a very strange day.
Please stop anxiety… I am begging you. Please. Goddamn it… Please…
I hardly ever tumble anymore. But what else am I doing with my life?! Well… I have this wonderful and amazing girlfriend… And I’m working… But besides that… I feel like there’s not much. I would like to change this now. Thanks for listening, world.